Friday, October 07, 2016

A missionary or a mission field?

Have you ever wondered what a missionary is? What they do? How they do it?  It is a selfless act.  It is something that makes you ask the question on am I a missionary or a mission field?  This question was posed to the group of people I was with whilst in America.  You're really one or the other... but sometimes it's hard to identify which.

I know there are times when I know which one I am and I know right now there's times I feel like I am not  doing the best I can or I don't want to be because I am exhausted but the big question is are you doing what you can?  You don't have to travel far to be a missionary.  You don't have to eat foreign foods.  You can stay at home.  Are you showing God's love where you're at in what you're doing?  This is the big question.  This is what I hope I am still doing when everything feels up in the air and this is what I hope others can see in me... God's love, not my own ambitions, fears, hurts, selfishness, etc. but God's love.  It is He that I live for and it is because of Him that my life has purpose.  He has given each and everyone of us a purpose in life.... each and everyone of us has a hope and a future and something to live for.  So what are you waiting for?  Are you a missionary or a mission field?

Friday, July 15, 2016

Busy beavers...

I have not written in awhile and it is funny how you can have the best intentions to get something done, like following through on those teaser posts from Novemenber last year, and yet get completely distracted in the here and now priorities that so readily consume your life.  These past 6 months have been a challenge but a rewarding one... I am now 2 semesters from completing my nursing degree and have also had the privelege of spending much cherished time with my mother travelling north on my one week of holidays and enjoying the simple things of life together.  The animals continually remind me how much they anticipate the family being at home and enthusiastically and doubly greet you at the door when you vacate longer than expected.  Then I have these random moments with God where some words will pop into my head and it reminds me during the plateaud seasons that He is still with me and will never leave me and He wants to make that clear to me and hopefully to you too.
I am hoping to continue updating this blog more frequently than I currently am and would appreciate your prayers for this semester that began three days ago with today being my first day of on campus classes.  I have had the praise point today of making two friends in my class who have also journeyed through much of their degree feeling alone and hopefully this friendship will continue to blossom and encourage each other to strive for excellency during one of the more so difficult hands on classes.  There are always blessings behind and through trials.

Until next time,

Tuesday, November 10, 2015

What am I doing now?

This is just a teaser, as I am in exam block, but my next posts will involve what I'm studying right now and what God's been showing me, as well as what I believe could be next for me.  Stay tuned.

Sunday, August 02, 2015

This is me... and THIS is God!

Last night I was overwhelmed, shaken and struggling.  I was ready to throw in the towel on a number of things and I started having a lot of down spiralling thoughts all of a sudden. Yet before all of these crazy thoughts came to mind, when I was just starting to feel overwhelmed, I saw a picture on my computer's screensaver of a person walking in the sunshing with a scripture stating "He has not left me alone."

Jesus is always with me.  I knew God was saying something when I saw it, but I didn't really know to what measure.  I didn't feel lonely and I knew God was with me and would never ever abandon me (or anyone else).  So I continued on into the night of 2200 hours... where I was ready to give up on studies, give up on missions, and a lot more (thoughts going crazily on) but I definitely knew I was going to bed and getting my Bible out.  I also sent a text to two good friends asking for their allegiance in praying.  Yet when I started journalling my prayer to God, I was able to place everything into perspective, to think rationally and continue to worship Yahweh.  It wasn't content written in declarence of defeat and hopelessness, it wasn't denial; it was truth.   This is saying something compared to a year ago where I just left the dark thoughts flow relentlessly in hard times.

God came through even more that night.  The picture was on a randomised feed, and so I had forgotten the verse reference and really wanted to meditate on that said scripture.  The first thought that I thought of was John 1:29 ("29 The next day John saw Jesus coming toward him and said, “Look, the Lamb of God, who takes away the sin of the world!").  That wasn't what I was looking, so I spent some time asking God again, and John 4:29 (“Come, see a man who told me everything I ever did. Could this be the Messiah?”) came to mind. I put my search at rest for the night there.  But God did not stop relaying the message.  Both of these verses seem irrelevant to the struggles I was having and the verse I was looking for, yet they both made me realise Jesus knows every single sin, all the sins combined of every single person alive, and He still chooses to love us. Now how many of us would love someone if they continually hurt us? Not many.  Jesus does! Jesus loves us. He knows all our wrongdoings and still chooses to walk by our side, calling us into His Kingdom! He doesn't leave us. EVER! Romans 8:38-39

      ("37 No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. 38 For I am  
convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons,[a] neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, 39 neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.")

states that nothing could ever make Him stop loving us .  There's nothing that will force God to say "I don't love you. I want nothing to do with you."  He will ALWAYS say "I love you! I want everything to do with you! I want you to share everything with me always!"  Isn't that amazing.  What an awesome God we serve!!!