It has been a few weeks since I've posted anything on here and not much has changed. I've slowly been filling out applications for two DTSs - Newcastle's Compassion DTS and Norton Summit's (Adelaide's) Justice and Mercy DTS.
Both of these have me excited, yet nervous. I am leaning more towards the Compassion DTS because deep down, that's the one which feels like God is calling me to. Maybe I'm crazy. Maybe I'm reading into things too much; thinking it only because that's what I want to do... But I know God is asking me to trust Him. That is one thing that is becoming more and more clear. Hypoglaecia with three day fecer hospital trip, rent payments, household dilemmas, insecurities, job incidences, transport and cars, and troubles finding obstacles are persuading me to just trust in Lord. No matter how much my mind is screaming for instant help; I know God wants me to trust Him first; to stop going to my friends and family for wisdom; to stop trusting in anyone but God alone.
I am yet to receive any sort of support for the DTS and I have no where near the amount required to be eligible to attend, and my mind knows that. I had a dream a week ago, which seemed so real that I thought it actually happneed. I dreamt that I woke up for a few minutes and saw that I had an email from the Bank of Queensland, stating that $100 had been transferred to my YWAM account. It was that clear, that I even rememberd the name of the donater. But when I awoke, I discovered, whilst talking to a friend, that the dream was a complete lie, and whilst it hurt, I am sure that there is a trust in God lesson there to be learnt also. It will come in some way, for sure, it is all a matter of God's timing and trust. :)
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